Needing His Embrace

-Satisfied, The Gathering Place Worship- Come & Dwell

I want to keep these words on repeat each day as I face the multitudinous bumps in the road that is this adoption journey. To say that everything along the way is fantastic would be a lie. Most days, it is difficult to face the reality of the process----the agonizing waiting, the anxiety of the lack of funds, the pressures of making the correct choices.  Crawl under a rock and hide there forever? Yes, please! The only problem with that is that Christ is a beacon of light. Nothing about what He is doing here in the midst of this journey can be hidden. Daily I feel like a raw, salt-scrubbed, open wound. Here is the thing....I know why I feel that way. That feeling is Christ! He is speaking through the vulnerability.  If I did not know what discomfort felt like, then I would be missing out on Him Washing me in His grace, Drenching me in His Spirit, Clothing me in His Love, and Wrapping me in His mercy.  I do not want to miss such precious moments. Feeling exposed and ragged makes me want to be more overwhelmed with his presence.  It makes me long desperately for His perfect embrace.  So, I recant. Forget the hiding under a rock forever thing. He is my ROCK and my salvation. My ROCK, my Savior, hides me in His serenity. It is the only true calm in the storm.  It is a peace like no other. When I remember this, I am satisfied. Apart from HIM, I am nothing. Play that on repeat all day long. Never forget it. Never live outside of it. So, as I face weekly turmoil pertaining to choosing which birth mom profile is the "right" one, I am reminded of all of these things. Though I am weary, He is my strength, my peace, and my refuge.  It would be easy for me to complain and say, "I'd rather be somewhere else in this process right now." And, don't get me wrong, I do still say such things (pray for me!). However, there is nowhere better to be than right here--overwhelmed by His presence in this struggle, knowing that I am in the center of His will. So, if you're journeying with me, join me in rejoicing over the only thing in the world that matters....Jesus Christ! Please continue to pray over me and my child as the Lord continues to move at His own pace. 

Much Love,